CandleLighters

Okay so I left one thing out we did the last week in September, because it was just a little more special. So every year since Spenser passed away we go an event that CandleLighters hosts. Basically it is for parents and families of children who have passed away in past years from any form of childhood cancer. And well Spenser did not have cancer I am so grateful to be invited as a family to participate in honoring and remembering our children.
I think and everyone in my family agrees that the first year we went it was amazing, they spotlighted each child and had a wonderful message I think we left feeling a little better than when we came. Since that first year well things haven't been that great but we still go and every year it gets a little better. The best part is that it is at Memory Grove in SLC, it is beautiful there and every year they do it a little earlier in the year so we can enjoy the scenery. If you have the means I highly recommend you going there one day. You'll know I'm not lying.
So on October 1st Me, Todd and Courteney went down to Salt Lake, (we missed Kirsten and Tanner this year) the weather was great, it was warm and clear skies. It was nice and we had a good time, I love to think about Spenser and remember how silly she was just remember her period. Even though I think of her every single day this is just a special time for us. I hope that everyone has the opporturnity to share their greif with people who really understand the circumstances that brought them together. Even though it is hard surrounding yourself with people who really get it, it is just nice.
Anyway every year we get a button made with a picture of our child and this year it was this one. This was taking in Lucille Packard Childrens Hospital at Stanford in Palo Alto, CA. The doggy on her head is from the most amazing person I will never meet. Her bone marrow donor.